About him
'There is a difference between what a man says and thinks of himself, and what he is and does,' Marx.
'You disgust me.' (Ex-wife; catching me cheating - at chess).
'You dumb monkey; U will definitely B killing yourself; and we B dying.' (Indian labourer watching me using a jackhammer).
'Do you actually believe the crap you're spouting?' (Wicca/psychiatrist/psychotherapist tripping at an illegal rave in a forest).
"You're a fatalist and insane!" (online dater).
"You will be blocked 99% of the time." (A statistical analysis of my profile)
Culture...
Books: Comix.
Films: ADHD means only trailers are tolerable.
Music: Anything; tone deaf.
Theatre: Cheap seats.
Museums: Free bar.
'Art': "The finest productions of human art are immensely short of the meanest work of Nature,” Thomas Reid.
Miscellaneous self-aggrandising...
Lifestyle: A halcyon youth spent running on dirty fuel - chasing night time back into the day - exchanged for a rueful middle-aged serenity; punctuated by occasional bouts of irrational optimism fuelled by organic red wine.
Food: Concocting inedible curries; wonky chapatis; sticky-pan rice; fiery passata; burnt chocolate.
Travelling: Escapades in North/South America; Europe, Caribbean; Middle East, and SE Asia, veered between serendipitous joy and survival.
Pets: I have a cactus - but we are no longer on speaking terms.
Job: Over 25 years of indentured salary-slavery at the same media firm. It's not a vocation, merely a banausic endeavour to service mortgage/bills, and enjoy a debauched epicurean lifestyle: a cinema subscription.
Politics: 'A conspiracy theory is just something the government doesn't want you to hear; and doesn't want you to think about,' (RFK JR).
Ambition: Less humility; more judgmental.
Hobbies: Shopping; Making Shopping Lists; Worrying if I am doing enough shopping.
Religion: The 1st Law of Thermodynamics. As an inveterate misanthrope, it is my sincerest dream that my soul/energy is reincarnated as a thunder cloud; or a chat show host.
About his ideal match
LOVE: ‘The stupidest...most barbaric of all human passions...nothing more tedious, puerile... inhumane than love,’ Woolf.
SEX: No nymphomaniacs please; too physiologically and psychologically enervating.
MONEY: 'Annual income £20, annual expenditure nineteen nineteen six, result happiness. Annual income £20, annual expenditure £20.06, result misery,' Dickens.
I'm disgustingly rich; annual income: £20; expenditure 1p.
KIDS: 'If', there is one - hopefully - redeeming quality, of my otherwise incorrigibly selfish life, that will weigh in my favour , when I stand before Anubis, is that I chose not to have them.
With birth,
only does suffering,
and Death live.
Bedevilling parent/child;
in axiomatic cruelty
of strife.
A Sisyphean suffering;
defecating; eating; copulating;
reaping coin.
A bundle of insatiable appetites;
grinding the gears,
of the foul economic machine.
How wonderfully joyous,
this gift of life!
I make a monthly contribution to Save the Children, but that's only because it is tax deductible.
KIND: Our psychological imperatives are those of nature; forces of attraction/repulsion. These diabolical cosmic synergies swirl inside our synapses which are entangled with the preternatural energy.
Thoughts/actions are shaped by light/darkness; kindness/cruelty permeating reality. We are creatures of Shadow; feeding off the vitality of our fellow humans; animals, creatures and planet.
HONEST: 'Whoever is careless with the truth in small matters cannot be trusted with important matters,' Einstein.
People are inveterate liars, according to psychologists. But they and/or their study respondents could be lying about how much they lie. And cognition is not veridical; converting electrical impulses into sensory experience; a distorted view of reality - like MSM.
Morals are not pre-requisites (or naturalistically feasible; except as empty virtue signalling) but financial solvency, however, most certainly is.
As is, a willingness to contradict me.
